I am hyper competitive. Without my professional sports career (retired 10 year soccer pro- in US and Japan) to funnel my "drive", that mentality can spin out in all sorts of crazy directions.
When I am not well rested and around "like minded", positive people, my batteries drain quickly at my age (51).
I can, for the most part control my "rest", but I can't always control the people. ha!
So, I have to take up my "self care" another notch.
More soaking. Less gossip.
More time outdoors. Less time on Netflix.
More time breathing and knowing I'm breathing. Less time not breathing scrolling Instagram.
More time talking to my kids. Less time "working" while my kids are at home.
More time remembering my dreams. Less time living in victim mentality.
Hope this inspires your competitive juices to find "healthier" outlets.